August 12, 2008 - Beginning Again

Hey I am starting, going hard in that direction. Looking always upward. So much going on here, in my life. Seeking Him and His way. Praying that I will humbly yet boldly pick up my cross daily and follow you Lord. I heard on Revive Our Hearts, a 30 day challenge to honor our husbands. I am going to commit to that this day. Sign me up. I am amazed at my own selfishness over the years. And my willing to do what I have done for control. I want to give control up to you Lord, I can't deal anymore. You never intended for me too. Why do I not get this. I feel like a battery operated toy, a remote control car, I just keep bouncing off the same walls. (Walls of me, what I want, control of my life, the life of my family each individual one.) Just for today Lord, at least for this moment I give it all to YOU. Help me focus on that continual giving to YOU that leads to giving, no loving others, and the branches that will flow from that. May I see all through your eyes, may I take time to see what YOU, OH LORD, would have me see.